more dreams.

it got creepy.

i was staying in a large mansion that was owned by my childhood friend bianca's mother donna.

there were many many rooms and we spent time in all of them. there was a large tv room. the kitchen of course. the dining room where bianca's sister vanessa was slaving over christmas decorations. i know there was a lot going on in the tv room but i can't really remember.

anyways the most vivd and disturbing part of this dream took place in a bedroom.

edward was there, for once, and we were about to fall asleep in this big blue bed. earlier in the dream i had seen a small mouse that donna told me was for bianca's engineering project and not to worry.

however, we weren't lucky enough to have a small mouse grace our presence. instead, there was a small tiny gorilla with a white human-like wrinkly face in our room on the end of our bed....just dancing around and trying to party with us. i of course woke up edward freaking out and wondering what to do. the tiny gorilla seemed to understand english and responded to my fear. he tried to approach me, it seemed as though he wanted me to see that he was cool but the closer he got the more freaked out i became. i batted him with a pillow which he did not like. he leaped onto the bed even closer than before. so i really smacked him this time with the pillow and he flew across the room. then edward shut off the lights.

i felt this tiny little angry demon jumping on the end of the bed and then came the disturbing resolution to our problem. since the lights were out i could not see what was happening but i heard edward struggling and a lot of wrestling and writhing and slowed breathing and when the lights came up edward was sweating and the gorilla was gone. he had strangled the gorilla to death. did i feel remorse or guilt? no. but i knew i had to tell bianca immediately. i ran downstairs to find her. she had just come home from basketball practice. i told her that the gorilla frightened us and i kicked him across the room and somehow he was dead.

bianca didn't seem upset, slightly disappointed but understanding of our reaction.

i don't remember much after this but i'd say this dream was "really something"

so maybe this will be my dream blog.

for anyone out there in cyberspace...i remember every single dream that i have every night. now there is a small window of time for these memories but i can honestly say that at some point the next day i can vividly recall most or all of my dream from the night before.

and now i can subject a few strangers to the madness that is inside my brain.

i had a dream last night and it was insane to say the least.

some lady was giving out pills. a pill that made you relax, but it completely turned you into a tunnel-vision drone unaware of the world around you. in a slow-motion, wes anderson kind of way. the main problem was that she gave the pill to billie holiday, who then passed it along to nina simone, cicely tyson and some other amazingly prolific artist who i can not seem to remember.

wow. where are my thoughts?

i most vividly remember screaming "NOT NINAAA"

somewhere in this dream i also took a family vacation to miami.

i spent a lot of time checking my cell phone for text messages and walking alone on a white beach. this is the same beach/resort thing that is in all of my dreams where i'm on vacation.

oh what a dream.

and there was much much more i just don't remember it all.

i think i'll start writing here more.