late night movie.

its a shame that when i am home
all i want to do is sleep
and watch late night movies.

actually right now what i really want to do is write in this dumb blog, but i dont seem to have the inspiration, or motivation, or determination. whatever -ation i need, i dont got none. figures.

"if we hide, we will still lose"
i am watching the movie Small Soldiers. it is absolutely ridiculous and in full 90s wild style. a misunderstood pre-teen, girl next door love interest, awkward use of technology, good vs. evil the whole shabang. and i am loving it. not to mention david cross showed up out of NOWHERE. the bad jokes, capitalist propaganda and tactless drug references (crank, crystal meth, etc) its really a throwback to say the least. i dont know how i will one day remember "the 90s." it seems so silly to think about that now, but with each passing day the present fades and the past becomes more real. all the 'once weres' and 'used to bes' are what seem to make me smile and feel truly comfortable. i'd hate to think that this type of nostalgia will continue forever. that nothing will be as cool as it once was, or that nothing will feel as right as it once did. but maybe thats just the way life works. or life for now. i dont think that my life has actually started yet. which is also a little depressing ha. i just assumed that my real life, the one that counts will begin with my family. but this life counts to. the late nights and dance parties. art projects and long walks. all this good stuff will come in handy someday. can't wait.

its nearly 4 and i need to sleep. i would like to write a bit out my new job. it is hilarious and insane of course....like everything else i know ha. in the meantime, selah.