our land.

today i went to the mall early in the morning like it was christmas.
i bought some pink rain boots.
good strolling weather.

okay so we were supposed to go see john legend in concert. i was pretty excited because i love his music PLUS the concert was free. it started at 3 and i was like hey guys lets leave at noon so we can get seats. everyones like cool idea lena...we were thinking the same thing except 2 hours later! so we get there and of course there are no seats, even the grass area close to the seats was packed. god knows people love free...anything. so we moped around a for a while, and then we decided to people watch...as an entire family. then we just walked around the east side which i have not done in a LOONG time, being that i am completely and voluntarily repulsed by the east side. but (i secretely love it) it wasn't so bad.

you know whats redamndiculous? i have a fucking burn mark on my arm from a stupid stupid popcorn kernel. one of them jumped out of the bowl and tried to kill me. now i have this dumb mark on the inside of my right arm in the perfect shape of a popcorn kernel. as if i dont have enough scars and marks and so on and so forth. im a pretty beat up kid. i probably should care more about that.

so all of us kids (just me) got my dad father's day gifts. well they're not awful...but they seem a little weak in my opinion. its a book, a dvd and a cd. the book is about fatherly advice from tv dads or something like that. while this is by far the most childish and tacky gift, i actually think he'll like it. we got him a ray charles 'live in brasil' dvd which is a typical "my dad" gift. i think he'll like it but it was a pretty brainless choice. then we got him this quincy jones and bill cosby cd. i thought that was just ridiculous. i saw the good doctor on the front of the cd sitting next to mr. jones smoking a cigar with sunglasses on and i just felt like it was too good to pass up. whether or not its any good...who knows. but yea another brainless choice on my part. so this wont be the best father's day ever. his birthday is in a month so i'll make sure that goes a little better. i actually have to figure out a way to wrap those presents using the random shit in my room. plus i have to go to church tomorrow. i haven't been there since easter. thank god (no pun intended) my parents have finally given up on me going to church. it was torture these last couple of years and i'm finally free.

so the mosque thats close to my house gives arabic lessons. fantastic! granted its just learning how to read the quran ( i actually had to look up the correct spelling of that...embarassing) but there are bound to be some useful words in there haha. yea i told my dad that i was hoping to do that and hes like "make sure they dont try to convert you" and i was like "yea...thats a christian thing" whats a little awkward is that i dont think it would take much to get me to switch sides so to speak. islam has always been my favorite. i always have found myself mystified by and defending it. it just seems to click with me for whatever reason. many people criticize the way they treat women, ugh i hate that i just said "they." anyways, i can understand the criticism, but how dare anyone who condones the way this society treats women judge islam. while i probably wouldn't be the first one in line at the burkha store, i find veiling to be extremely liberating and beautiful. why shouldnt i be cherished and loved and protected and respected behind a curtain. my looks have nothing to do with who i am. nothing. i dont want to get into my pro-islam speech, i just think that spending some time at the mosque will be a good thing for me. very good indeed.

i just finished watching some of hero, one of my favorite favorite movies. not only is it a beautiful story with incredible acting and mind blowing fight scenes, but the colors are just so damn sexy. its the most visually stimulating movie i think i've ever seen.

okay i think im going to get certified as a pilates instructor. i've been thinking it over for a while and its probably a really smart thing to do. considering that i am someone with essentially no goals or plan, i should probably have some sort of talent that i can make money off of. plus, i like it...ha. yea and i'm getting fat. good god am i getting fat. i went running yesterday which was good. and im doing my sit-ups every day from now on. but fat is really not a cute look for me. i just cant pull it off, nor will i ever try to. so yea, i'll be skinny with a job and money. not bad eh?

okay i have to wrap those presents and fall asleep. and i need to stop turning all of my shirts into flashdance knock offs. actually no i dont, who am i kidding.

the world i know
is a world too slow
it dont move fast enough
keep your head low