nevermind now with your heart.

i'm 15 minutes late for french class.
so i decided to sit down and write in my blog.
i may still go.


nobody knows, how deep my love for you really goes
cause girl i want you to know
i woudlnt ask you to hold back the dawn out of dawn baby
thats just a little to much to ask of anyone

i feel as though i am getting sick. that would be extremely inconvenient. i want more than anything to miss an arabic class today. more than anything in the world actually. but i know that i can not. because i fall behind when i blink in that class. right now i miss mitsuwa. i miss koromamedaifuku. and i miss my mother. i guess yesterday was 'lets see how fast we can make lena cry' day. my moma calls me and starts talking about how much better my brother is doing in school and then reads me his stellar progress report. then she starts talking about how much she misses me and is proud of me and loves me. so of course i want to start crying because for whatever reason ive been missing home terribly. then she puts my grandfather on the phone and at first he doesnt recognize my voice which made me want to kill myself, then he asked if i was coming home...im just glad they didnt put my grandmother on the phone too. i miss them already.

so right now my life is still magic mike and the cure.

even though today is a 100% full price jeff buckley kind of day. okay so fuck french. i guess im not going for real. i have no patience to push myself to do things i dont want to do. its awful. maybe its just because i didnt know you at all.
ahh my hands just randomly got really dry. i think thats the worst ever. dry fingers. how awful. i do try to take good care of my hands as they are my energy source. at the risk of sounding like a hippie, i really think that everyone should attempt to find their energy source just for future reference. it would only take some basic meditation and an open mind. impossible requests huh? i figured.

i think i'll walk around the block and then lay down before arabic.
and soon you will see we are blessed incompleted.