yea i saw sparks.

today i skipped pilates
and stood up drago for our date
i almost feel guilty.


so my life is pretty busy these days. going to bed every night by 11, getting up every morning by 6. i never thought i could be so damn productive. i got an A on my arabic quiz and 100 on my theology quiz. and yea...i need to brag. im working really hard and im not sure what for. but someone once told me that it'll all work out...and thats a promise. the only thing that i hate about the "new me" is that im always tired. i hate being tired, because that just means i'm going to sleep more. and i hate sleeping because that just means i'm going to miss out on the fun stuff.

i think i'll go home on sunday just for a little bit. maybe to take a nap and drop off my brother's birthday present. hes incredibly old these days. so i realized that i'm pretty much all talk. i always knew that, but i really faced it this last week. when it comes to a lot of things i pretend to be one way but im really not. i've never really been in a fight...except for the dumb girly kind that only exists in your mind, i dont dislike people as much as i say i do, im genuinely happy most of the time either that or im genuinely scared. im not quite as lazy as i make myself seem. i'm definitely as needy as i claim to be. im defintely not brave...just thought id throw that in there. ugh great, now ive gone and depressed myself and i want to take a nap.

im not sure when i first heard the song destiny. its so beautiful though. it may have been on mtv2 or something like that. i love zero7 they just might be my favorite band. i'm into favorites these days. i feel the need to claim things as my favorite... i think thats dumb though. okay its official im taking a nap.