so much wasted in the afternoon

i am at work right now.
this very moment.
i do nothing here.

so i got my mini ipod in the mail yesterday. i know im about 3 years late with that but whatever, i had fun setting it up. i was just contemplating going into an "i love music so freaking much" speech but i decided against it. it only leaves me frustrated. so today diana and i are going to sit in my basement and watch movies and eat a lot of food that we shouldn't be eating. god its good to be home. people at school just dont know how to do depressed the right way. since i was randomly hung over yesterday (delayed reaction) i not only came to work about 20 minutes late, but i also left about 2 hours early. so i decided to stay late today because my broke ass needs to get paid. but i dont think thats going to happen. i'll probably stay until 2 or so and then run out of here screaming...like i normally do.
wow that was the most boring thing i've ever written. now that we all know that i pathetically plan my escapes from my place of work lets move on.

i spoke to bella on the phone today..mi amor. i love the way she says my name, like she gets a big kick out of it. mind you she is 4 years old so its very possible that she does in fact get a big kick out of it. i love kids.

so yesterday, toya mom and me watched spanglish. what an amazing movie! it was nothing like i imagined. i thought it was just going to be a quirky comedy and it was but it was so much more than that. it was truly beautiful and i plan on watching it again. the first five minutes of it was in mexico..what more could you ask for haha. i love mexico so much. i think that i'm going to have to live there for a certain amount of time. i want to rent a house down there for a month next summer. its not that expensive. recently i've been pretending to be concerned about getting sick down there but thats a lie. okay my body is seriously beyond amazing. i dont mean that in a oooh check me out kinda way, but with all the terrible horrible things that i've done to it, its surprisingly resilient. i mean i drink like a fish with half a liver, i smoke everything on god's green earth with mild asthma, i eat crap, never exercise, and yes on occasion i drink soda (but thats a really big fucking secret so dont tell).

bleh my boss just called me with shit i actually have to do today. i get to make phone calls inviting people to a sonic healing session with john dumas! hooray! honestly if some guy is gonna chant over me with a digeridoo and try to cleanse my soul he better be the fucking CHIEF of an aboriginal tribe not some white dude with long hair and birkenstocks. no offense ha. i love how everyone talks around here. "ooh her energy was so bad i couldn't even touch her" "oh my god his ora was just so overwhelming" "wow have we spiritually cleansed the studio today?" REAL PEOPLE DONT TALK LIKE THAT. its so fucking ridiculous. so you cleansed your energy but you're still gonna sit behind the desk with me and talk shit about lindsay lohan because guess what...thats real. thats how i balance my fucking ora haha. whatever i shouldnt really start complaining. i love everyone here. in all their pseudo intellectual capitalist driven spiritual mumbo jumbo....they're good people and i can appreciate that if nothing else. okay im going to read some more of my book before people start acutally getting here and i have to waste my time on looking busy.



friends...check.
money...check.
well slept...check.
opposite sex...